By Carissa Van Schooten
“…wrestling with a good God, whose very presence demands your transformation…”
I came across the above quote in my reading this past month, and found myself stuck on it. There was something about the quote that kept pulling me back, something that seemed discordant. “A good God, who demands transformation…” How can a good anything demand something? Isn’t good supposed to be gentle, kind, gracious, understanding, compassionate, and all the other synonyms that match those virtues?
And transformation. I love the concept as it relates to a caterpillar and the later-stage butterfly: the promise of more, the development and potential for increased growth and beauty and depth. But what about the change it triggers in the here and now? A transformation, by definition, means that the future will be different. That my experience of the future will be different. The here-and-now may not be completely eradicated, but it will not exist exactly as it now does. Which means change. Which means that while there will be something added, something also must be lost.
So then, “a good God, whose very presence demands